so me and darcie broke up on sunday. and we got together and talked some today and its definate. i'm single again, and i hope to be for a while. but surprisingly i have taken it in and i seem to be handling it pretty well. i'm somewhat sad, but mostly i am happy. and i realize that the reason i am taking it well is because i understand that it isnt under my control, i cant change wat happened. so i just accept wat happened and i will move on. there is no need for me to just focus on wat happened and get my self depressed. that wont do me any good. i would still love to go out with her again. but its not up to me.

so ladies if ur interested in me. just wait a little till i fully recover. and then u can start coming at me. haha. just kidding.

anyway i painted my bike and handle bars and forks black today.

peace out

asimov solenson

losing loved ones is hard

so me and the person that i said i lost trust and respect for talked and i found out that she didnt lie to me, she just didnt know wat was happening. so now we r good. and the pain that i went thru is still not resolved but i hope it will be soon.

the other day i was at darcies house and maroon 5's "she will be loved" came on the radio. and i remember darcie saying that i should learn it. so thats wat i'm gonna do. right this exact second i am printing tabs for maroon 5's " she will be loved"

today i spent the whole day with my friend darwin.and we wanted to go bmxing. so he put his bike back together but he didnt have some of the ball bearings for his crank and it was making weird noises. so while we were at the trails/ramps, this kid showed up and took darwin's bike back to his house to give him some ball bearings. while we were there i noticed really cool handle bars and forks, and i mentioned that i liked them and the kid just said "u can have them" so now i have pink forks on my bike and really light purple handle bars. but then during conversation he showed me his "lowrider" bike. it was so oldschool and it had the coolest ape-hanger handle bars. its orange. but as we were talking he said for 15 dollars i could have it. and then he told me that he would hold it for me until i got the money. the bike is so sweet. i cant wait till its mine.

quote of the day: "yea, his land leaper... land leaper?...land lord. thats wat i wanted to say." -me

peace out

asimov solenson

i'm being crushed alive and i cant take it, but there is nothing i can do about it. its not in my control. all i can do is wait and see if the person behind the madness will feel sympathy and mercy upon this weak heart....

i am crushed. the final inches have come to nothing. i am no more.

saying goodbye to friends is nothing compared to the pain i just went thru.

i just came to the realization that not only must i go thru the pain of wat just happened, i have to deal with a friend who betrayed me. this was i a friend that i respected, i looked up to, someone that i could tell anything to. and now all trust and respect is gone. i hope ur happy.

hey i'm back. i just got back from new york. it was ok, i didnt have as much fun as i thought i would. and i also didnt get to see darcie for a week. i met a few ppl, got some SN's so i will keep in touch. but i havent talked to darcie since wednesday. i tried to call her on thursday, but she wasnt there. and i was hoping to have her over today when i got home. but i think she is working right now. so thats not cool. all i really want to do right now is hang out with darcie.

i played guitar and sang for the talent show at the workcamp i was at, and i completely butchered the song. it was "best deceptions" by dashboard. and i played it horribly. normally i can play it perfect the whole way thru, but for some reason i just did horrible on it. i was so mad at myself. o well. i cant do anything about it anymore.

peace out

asimov solenson

saying goodbye to friends is harder than making them